Sometimes God uses drastic circumstances to teach me a lesson, as evident in some of my previous posts. Thankfully, sometimes He uses that still, small whisper. I’ve long accepted the fact of God’s love for me, but I’ve often wondered why He loves me. Even on my best day, I’m self-serving, myopic, and frivolous! Why would the sovereign God of all creation deign to love me, or any of us? He loves us to the point of giving His son for us. As a small child, I memorized John 3:16, just like so many other Sunday School attenders, but I have to slow down and really think about what it means: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son. . .” Without a moment’s hesitation, I would forfeit my life to preserve that of Avery or Lily. I can think of no human being for whom I would give even one drop of their blood. So why would God give Jesus for us?
A few nights ago, I was holding Lily in the dark hours of the morning. Standing in the nursery with her cradled against me, rocking from side to side to soothe her back to sleep, I looked down at her precious face in the darkness and asked the Lord, “So this is how You love me?” The true nature of God will remain a secret to me, but I cherish these small glimpses so that I can know Him more. God is our father, but motherhood has taught me about His love for us. Avery and Lily are very easy to love, unlike most of us adults! They laugh and smile and coo. They both raise one eyebrow, their left, just like me. They “sing” along to music. We have hilarious conversations about their toys, their clothes, their bottles, and their baths. I delight in them! Thus the question echoes through my mind, “So this is how You love me?”
The Lord your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.
Photos of Lily
Photos of Avery